I broke!!! Went to shop for my graduation clothes, blazzer. Diane, sorry arh this time i the one who put 'plane'...
Dunno what happen today... everything i 'eye' on is the last piece... Haiz! Still manage to grabe sth back home. 3 bags... Seems lot??? Ha-ha.. Okie lei, but this time round, i spent like no one biz. Over budget! Spent nearly to $200. Yet, i looking forward next wed... cos pay day!!! Horray!!! But cant happy so early cos there is so many things the company gotta deduct. And the worst person in my family.. my mum!!! Eying on my salary long ago..... almost everyday keep reminding me to pass some money to one aunt of mine and she as well... Sobz.... cant imagine my pay gotta share wif some many ple :(
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I was so stressed up these few days... did i mentioned in my previous blog?? Nvm, i repeated again... i taking over 4 projects from Jo whom leaving at the end of the mth. SOobzzz... So stressed!!! As if i professional nod coding very well... yet i struggle like hell. Almost everyday staying back listen to briefing, do testing and coding... Thanks God, Fri i can go back early. I mangaed to leave at 630pm... cos i've requested....
After work, went to meet poly friends at bugis. Planned to eat Sakae due to some circumstances... end up went to eat Sweesens. Supposingly, i was the planner cos no one wants to make plans where to go den i pass this impt task to Wilson. Dunno what happen, i seems like addicted to night life [as wat tian has mention in her blog]. So i suggest having drink after dinner instead going home... After sending Jas to carpark, we went have some pool games while waiting for Aven back from his army life. After playing for hours, Botak guy came. Tian claimed that he looked like a Nija turtle. He seem a little black and the first question he asked "Have I lose weight?" Haha, such a unusal qn asked by a guy... When we walked to go to another pub, JH said he want to go home... As usual, let him off... We went to a nearby pub where has pool too at Middle Road. The names given on the drinks were interesting : Lady Killer, Test tube baby, Am I a Virgin, Blowjob and etc... Tian had Lychee Martini which has lychee in it, but not so sweet. Wilson suggest me to have Apple Martini so we ordered the same. Cos JP can't take alcholic drink at the moment... so she ordered fruit punch. So poor thing, cant haf a taste on what we have ordered. Dunno wat Ron ordered, taste like coughing sryup and aven one [Baby in the test tube] is the worst... so terrible! Haf some games and of course with Wilson ard, penalties sure exist... Time pass so fast... when we realise is nearly 1am when Tian gotta went back. So Tian n Ron went back; Jp follows as well. While me... stayed a while and haf some games with the guys. Lucky, i won quite a couple of times, didnt manage to finish the drink ordered by Wilson. It sucks! Anyway, this is the 2nd time to haf drink wif them... quite enjoying... Erm, maybe more to come provided everyone haf money... Heez.
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*** Copy from Sockiee... ***
Sometimes, you look at a person and you feel that you want to be better friends with him/her.
Sometimes, you feel close to a person, but to him/her the feeling is not even close to mutual.
Sometimes, you're in an event where you have to live with a group of people over a period of time, and you'll want to be the noisy, proactive one who goes around livening everything up. you make a total fool of urself and you try to crack hilarious jokes, act stupid and put up momentary happiness for your group. but at the end of the day, everyone else gets bonded, except you.
Sometimes, people do things like hang out together, and they leave you out. and they say they forgot. but "forgetting" shows how much you really mean to them.Sometimes people say "hey are you alright, why're u looking so sad", but the next moment they're off having fun, probably forgetting the fact that you're unhappy.
Sometimes, you see a friend in need of something, but you just don't know what. and when you attempt to give him something, you get it all wrong. and your friendship blows, leaving you feeling all stupid.
Sometimes, you think that you have a very wide circle of friends, but ultimately, people see you as nothing more than an entertainer. a second choice. or maybe a last resort.
Sometimes, you yearn for friends who trust you with their innermost secrets, but because of your outgoing, noisy nature, people don't see the trustworthy side of you, and you really become a full time entertainer. a second choice. or maybe a last resort.
Sometimes when you feel tired of talking, and you keep quiet, people realise there's something wrong with you and they go "eh how come so quiet" because the "entertainer" in them has gone all quiet and they're not used to it. that's probably cos you're supposed to be the full time entertainer. a second choice. or maybe a last resort.
Sometimes, a message from a friend brightens your day up, but the next moment you realise that he didnt really mean it cos he forwarded it for the sake of forwarding it.Sometimes you talk alot to make people laugh, out of the best of intentions. but when it gets slightly overboard, people see you as the main culprit.
Sometimes, you just feel that something like "friendship" is never real, but rather always superficial. because friends do not always respond to your calls and requests as spontaneously as ur mother or father or sister would.
Sometimes you wanna say something very very much, but you just cannot because you know that not saying it would leave the situation or person involved in a position much better off.
Sometimes, you want to hide in the room and cry out loud, but when the room door is locked up and you're all ready to cry, you just feel this sickening sensation that sends you hanging in between crying and not crying.
Sometimes you just know that people are better off with others instead of you, and you feel painfully upset about that. but you never want to do anything cos you just feel inferior.
Sometimes the pain becomes so unbearable...and you wanna call for help. But what recurs in ur thoughts is "Who will care?...", and you scroll down ur phone book aimlessly, meaninglessly.
** So after reading, did u agree the above points??? I totally agree... !!! **
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Damn tired... today worked OT. The first time ever till 715pm... Cos of 3hrs briefing... Trying hard to absord whatever the briefing said. [I trying my best!!!]Then Kiat left, nv wait for me. Sob. But understand lei... Worst still, i went to the wrong bus stop den make me return home even later... So hungry but oli can bare with empty stomach.
Chatted with Wansee minutes ago. Then realise Kel went to airport to send her. Aiyoh, i miss the show! Kel when to hug her when she abt to check in... So touched, so sweet... Gal, if i were u my tears sure flow out... I nod ur souls are flying, how u wish the time will stop at that moment. How u wish u can back out... not to go to Aust and stay in Spore... Heez, i might be wrong. But i knew u are happy.. Too bad, no one take it down or else i can see how u looks like... Nvm, memories is the most precious and expensive gift. Think, his gift is better than anyone of us here ba... heez. Wow, think u are the most xin fu lady in this world, 2 of them sending u... Haha... u sld nod what i mean....
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Today, my mood sucks. Not feeling that good... really feel like crying so i can feel better. But no matter how hard i tried, no tears flowing out. Only can sense is not right somewhere... Going to slp soon so my mood will be better tml...
How i hope time can stop whenever i want... How i hope tml is not monday den i able to slp till noon... Sleepy mood...
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Xl, thanks for the call. I was shocked to receive ur call so early... but i nod u mean well. I can sense ur concern hope is not kpo like Sockiee, i dunno i just treat concern ba... heez. But to another gal, Sockiee... i not sure if i want to thanks u not... cos u always bully me! Rem sun??? Hah-ha... Ask me go brownbox! Go there not cos of eating but changing notes. And somemore sat night, i was there. So malu lor... going there not cos of eating but yet change money... Haiz! Somemore, u suan me till up to heaven that high lor... And when pass by, still dare trying to suan me cos of that guy... Haiz, nth to say. Think only we two nod what happen... He's too young lei. Ha-ha... If he's my fav car owner... i might help u change notes for u everytime u need... Haha!!!
Gals, i not crying. I didnt cry last night. Really. I just stated i feel like crying but i didnt. Cos no tears. Nth to irrates me... Aiya, i forget! I sld think of how Sockiee bully me den i able to cry liao... Ha-ha...
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Sockiee:wah lao....you win lo....hahaha....i only suggested going to brownbox to find that guy ma....then u so enthu...took the money and left....lol......hahaa....i thought all along you interested in that guy ma...right from the start when he came to buy chicken pie and change for coins with us....wahaha....i knew it....you should ask him if he is the owner ma...but then...people got steady girlfriend one lo...hahha....don't make people paisae ma...ahha...i think only christy and myself saw that girl...lol....oh ya...how you know his age? you went to ask him ar?? my goodness....you so...hahaha.....anyway, i thought you got another target?? that vet/groomer?? ahhaha....but i know you are disappointed after seeing him buying 4d...lol.....why you cant stand people gambling?? hahaha....joking la....
Meiling: I tot u not enought money meh. See me so good, go change money oso let u say me.. Haiz. Hao Ren Nan Zhuo...
Hey i not interested to that brownbox guy lor. I jus found it funny. Nah, tat time i was eating n u ask me abt changing coins...u nod how to handle yet u ask me! Hey of course i nod he got gf lei. Tot i told u b4 i saw them b4... esp at bus 73? I saw them couple of times... slping lor... Woah, u good lor... when the vet/groomer come to picture??? He's not vet? Groomer??? My god! Ya, disappointing when i saw him buy 4d. Spoilt the look! ....
Sockiee: please lo...i never bully you lo....i wonder who hur...keep saying "beat = dote, scold = love", yet you cant find any event to demostrate that you treat me well....see...still say i bully you...don't know who lo..snatch my sleeping bag, still wakes me up so early in th morning...hahhaa....see la...i settling old scores with you again....
Meiling:I didnt treat u good meh?? How dare u say this. I brought u gift when i went to Thai lor...n not to rest. See now me become bad guy... Hey wat snatch ur sleeping bag? Pls lor.. that is past! Already 4-5yrs back!!! U still ji jiao!!!!
Sockiee: so bad lo you.....haizz....i told xueling then she call you...and you say i kpo...next time don't show concern for you lo....."hao xin mei hao bao"....anyway,you better don't cry le...later everyone come and scold me lo....somemore that one you say none of your business one will kill me ar...don't forget i get to work with him more often recently..already a torture lo...hahaha.....don't tell him le...lol.....
Meiling:What the hell! IS ur problem..... pls lei. I already settle that problem, pls dun put some more salt into it.. and put me into trouble again... Thanks arh...
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