Nowadays, me felt more frustrated bored and pek chek … I don’t know how to describe my feeling. I don’t think I enjoy myself since after “graduate”. The feeling is so different; didn’t have the excitement like when I finished my 'O' Levels years back. Maybe is because I got to face the cruelness, competitive world outside… Honesty speaking, I still have not prepare to face the world outside. Facing those bosses, superior, colleagues and work load, I will MAD one day. In fact, I don’t know what I want to do next… especially in the future. I didn’t have any idea what I want to be. Now, I only know “to play” whenever I can. Maybe u can say is the time for me to go thru or face the world outside but … is too fast too early! Can u imagine in down the road, u being tied up with not school work but work load… The real “WORK” that our parents are going thru in their past decades. I don’t want that. I hate it. I know I can’t endure that. I will surrender to the work force out there. Maybe, maybe after months of enjoying, I will change my mind… who knows maybe me working next week in some company, right? How I wish I still a small kid, 6-8 years old little gal who always get scolded from parents… mind always go play after back from school ; lots of freedom, no stress… no need to bother what happen next… do whatever I want as if there no tml… Hehehe… Actually don’t know what nonsense I saying now... Some more me going to Bangkok the week after next… thinking of that, make me more thrill!!! As it is the first time going to Bangkok independently… Hehehe… thinking of going there shop, eat, drink and loiter around… Hehehe so much fun… how I hope that day faster come… but … I so scared the day when I came back from Bangkok… no money then. Think got to eat cup noodles every meal… maybe eat one meal a day so to earn money back… So poor thing hor… Hope there are some kinds souls out there sponsor my trip there or when I back buy me meals everyday… Heez… [Dreaming already…]
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